Thursday, January 24, 2013
Clutter and Joy
It has been some time since I've participated in a Faith Jam from Faith Barista. Student teaching is not for the faint of heart, and I have felt more like I am being run over by my schedule than running my schedule. That's what makes today's prompt so perfect: clutter.
My house has become amazingly cluttered since I began student teaching at the start of the month. It's hard to imagine that the every day things like laundry and the detritus of children can add up so quickly. Things might not be put back as soon as they're laid aside, and so it begins. A glove can't be found. Then a library book that needs to be returned to the school. Then the piece to a kit mysteriously vanishes from where it was set down.
But worse than the usual clutter and its aftermath is the mental clutter I seem to carry around. To do: groceries...did I remember to write that thing down? It's on the tip of my tongue...Wait, I have to study for my licensure exam, is that this Saturday? Don't forget to brainstorm the lessons for next week, I want to impress my observers. Oh, no, I nearly forgot that appointment! That's more time lost.
I'm sure we all have some of that mental clutter. I would write it down (and usually do), but then it's apt to be lost in the physical clutter on my desk!
My nearest thing to a New Year's resolution was to become more organized. My cooperating teacher has commented several times on how "organized" I am. I give her a crooked grin and explain that it's only because I would lose everything otherwise, and believe me, my house is nothing like this! Thankfully she is a mother to two young girls, so she understands very well how difficult the juggling game can be, especially for a teacher just starting out.
I'm not looking for perfection this year, but I do want to get a better handle on the clutter. Controlled chaos, perhaps. Those stressed-out words that came immediately to mind? I want to let them recede in my life, so that I can enjoy the moments of discovery and joy with my children and husband that I've been too strained and hectic to notice lately. As much as the physical clutter does need wrangling, it's the mental clutter that I'm most concerned with.
So I'll pack it up, one box at a time. Closing the flaps on self-judgment and doubt, opening wide the box where whimsy and spontaneity have been stored for too long. It's time for a mental spring cleaning.
And I'll also put the laundry away. :)
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